Thursday, September 28, 2006
time: 9:53 PM
just realised it was almost a month ago when i last blogged. haha. dunno why. just have this urge to blog again. okie here goes..
sighs. prelim results are all out. some subjects are albeit surprising but some are disappointing. more of the latter of course. surprising subject no.1, chem. haha. 69. aint very high right? but its the highest in class.. haha. cannot help it. i just have to announce it to the whole wide world. not very often elaine ang can top in something lo. in fact, its rare. anyway, surprising subject no.2, physics. i passed it. haha. not gloriously duh, barely scraped a C5. but ohwell. its definitely good enough for me. that's it for the surprising part. now comes the disappointing part..
disappointing subject no.1, combined humans. oh man.. its the lowest for c.h i've ever got.. 50! i barely passed it. sigh.. i even had to use geog for my L1R5. haha. which was a C5 by the way. guess im really disappointed because i'd always considered it as one of my stronger subject. such a great blow.. sighs!! now for disappointing subject no. 2, english. B3. hmm. even though i usually get this grade all the time, i really really hope for an A2.. i like english. really do. just dont know why i cannot perform. argh. okok. disappointing subject no. 3, amaths. B4. actually its quite alright la. but rather let ms chee down. disappointing subject no. 4, emaths!! i scraped an A1. but seriously la, almost everybody scores 80plus. and there i am with a 78. i know im supposed to be content, but i really cannot help it. i was feeling confident about it de lo.. sigh. this teaches me not to be complacent anymore. carelessness.. will be the death of me.
ok enough about results. they aren't really important are they? its the process that matters. at least that's what the teachers always say.
yeah right. i'm unable to deceive myself.
so.. L1R5 is below 20. that's the optimistic part. but still where can i end up with a lousy 17? i bet its SR. im starting to wonder if i should go to the first month at all. sigh. anyway, people are talking about moderation. it'll be useful for most people.. but most of my grades barely scrape by. it will have the least effect on me. except for chem. but i doubt chem is a subject they will moderate.. sigh.
this is such a blue post. mostly sighings, whinings, rantings and complainings. kk shall stop it. its getting gross.
anyway.. xuelin came over my house today. but this is different from all the usual hanging out. we actually did our homework together. surprising eh? i even called up angeline a few times to ask about geog qns. it must have been a scare for her. haha. oh xuelin cooked maggi for me. hahaha. so nice of her. xuelin rocks. love her. wahahaha.
hmm. i really really must buck up le! have to stop feeling so post-prelim. for goodness sake i have to stop acting like olvls are over. especially when the results aren't as expected.. but i feel so unmotivated.. i need pushing!
after abandoning this blog for so long, i wonder if anybody will manage to read this post.. haha. not only has it collected dust, it has it's very own ecosystem already.. :D
okie. shall return to the last two part of the geog essay qns left..
Everything is fed up straight from the heart
Tell me what do you do, when it all falls apart
Gotta pick myself up where do I start
Cuz I can't turn to you when it all falls apart
